You know when "they" say the key to weight loss is making lifestyle changes, and changing the way you look at food. Those bastards are right. There is no magic pill, no potion, or machine. It comes from changing the toxic relationship you have with food, changing your attitude about eating right from calling it a "diet" to really embracing what it means to be healthy. To treat your body with respect and nourish it (Sounds like I eat a lot of granola and wear tie-dyed shirts, but no). I refuse to abuse my body anymore to feed my selfish, unjustified food addicted mind.
I have found success in the most unexpected place...Letting go....
I can FEEL that my mindset is different. Like I have hit a maturity level where I can finally embrace a healthier lifestyle, if that makes any sense to anyone else but me? I really think it is a case of my growing up and accepting that I was sabotaging myself because I was too afraid to fail, or more than anything that the change wouldn't happen as fast as I NEEDED it to. I say needed with such emphasis because I needed to see huge weight loss number on the scale each week to make me want to carry on. Instant gratification or nothing. One bad week, and I would abandon ship, and start the cycle over again... usually on a "Monday". This Shaunna says "EVERY MEAL is a chance for a fresh start", the Monday bullshit is over.
The Captain and I are going away on a sunny vacation in early March, and while this has been my starting motivation, it is not my end goal. My real goal is to learn, experiment, and work my way to a healthy body. Taking baby steps, and embracing the piddly changes for what they are along the way, because those small things are success. In a year from now I hope I can say I did something big and amazing, in March I just hope to look better in a bikini than I would have in January.
I am not dieting, I am merely perfecting.
